Masturbation/Haram

Question

I masturbated beside my ex friends child while she was sleeping and I was told it is Haram and is unforgivable please tell me that is not true. I'm so scared. The mother destroyed my relationship with my ex boyfriend & she's determined to keep us apart. What do I do? Her husband is Muslim. Just to clarify I was not masturbating in a sexual way. I was just trying to help myself to sleep. I have been on antidepressants for many years & I believe I have suffered some brain damage from them. They are very dangerous.

Answer 1

Allah forgives all kinds of sins, as stated in this verse:

قُلۡ يَٰعِبَادِيَ ٱلَّذِينَ أَسۡرَفُواْ عَلَىٰٓ أَنفُسِهِمۡ لَا تَقۡنَطُواْ مِن رَّحۡمَةِ ٱللَّهِۚ إِنَّ ٱللَّهَ يَغۡفِرُ ٱلذُّنُوبَ جَمِيعًاۚ إِنَّهُۥ هُوَ ٱلۡغَفُورُ ٱلرَّحِيمُ 53

(VI) SAY: "My servants who have acted extravagantly against themselves still do not despair of God's mercy. God forgives all sins; He is the Forgiving, the Merciful. (53)

But it is needed to do Tawbah and leave the sin.

يَـٰٓأَيُّهَا ٱلَّذِينَ ءَامَنُواْ تُوبُوٓاْ إِلَى ٱللَّهِ تَوۡبَةٗ نَّصُوحًا عَسَىٰ رَبُّكُمۡ أَن يُكَفِّرَ عَنكُمۡ سَيِّـَٔاتِكُمۡ وَيُدۡخِلَكُمۡ جَنَّـٰتٖ تَجۡرِي مِن تَحۡتِهَا ٱلۡأَنۡهَٰرُ يَوۡمَ لَا يُخۡزِي ٱللَّهُ ٱلنَّبِيَّ وَٱلَّذِينَ ءَامَنُواْ مَعَهُۥۖ نُورُهُمۡ يَسۡعَىٰ بَيۡنَ أَيۡدِيهِمۡ وَبِأَيۡمَٰنِهِمۡ يَقُولُونَ رَبَّنَآ أَتۡمِمۡ لَنَا نُورَنَا وَٱغۡفِرۡ لَنَآۖ إِنَّكَ عَلَىٰ كُلِّ شَيۡءٖ قَدِيرٞ 8

(II) You who believe, turn to God in frank repentance. Perhaps your Lord will remit your evil deeds for you and show you into gardens through which rivers flow, on a day when God will not let the Prophet be humiliated. Those who believe will stand alongside him, their light streaming on ahead of them and to their right. They will say: " Our Lord, perfect our light for us, and forgive us! You are Capable of everything!" (8)

Also having boyfriend is Haram in Islam:

وَمَن لَّمۡ يَسۡتَطِعۡ مِنكُمۡ طَوۡلًا أَن يَنكِحَ ٱلۡمُحۡصَنَٰتِ ٱلۡمُؤۡمِنَٰتِ فَمِن مَّا مَلَكَتۡ أَيۡمَٰنُكُم مِّن فَتَيَٰتِكُمُ ٱلۡمُؤۡمِنَٰتِۚ وَٱللَّهُ أَعۡلَمُ بِإِيمَٰنِكُمۚ بَعۡضُكُم مِّنۢ بَعۡضٖۚ فَٱنكِحُوهُنَّ بِإِذۡنِ أَهۡلِهِنَّ وَءَاتُوهُنَّ أُجُورَهُنَّ بِٱلۡمَعۡرُوفِ مُحۡصَنَٰتٍ غَيۡرَ مُسَٰفِحَٰتٖ وَلَا مُتَّخِذَٰتِ أَخۡدَانٖۚ فَإِذَآ أُحۡصِنَّ فَإِنۡ أَتَيۡنَ بِفَٰحِشَةٖ فَعَلَيۡهِنَّ نِصۡفُ مَا عَلَى ٱلۡمُحۡصَنَٰتِ مِنَ ٱلۡعَذَابِۚ ذَٰلِكَ لِمَنۡ خَشِيَ ٱلۡعَنَتَ مِنكُمۡۚ وَأَن تَصۡبِرُواْ خَيۡرٞ لَّكُمۡۗ وَٱللَّهُ غَفُورٞ رَّحِيمٞ 25

And whosoever of you who has Not the means to marry free-believing Women, may marry believing girls From among those [captives and Slaves] whom you own; and Allāh is The Knower of your Faith; you are Fellow-creatures; then, wed them with The permission of their own folk [Guardians or masters] and give them Their marriage-portion according To what is reasonable, provided That they are chaste, not adulterous Nor taking boyfriends; and after they Have been taken in wedlock, if they Commit adultery, their punishment is Half of that for a free woman. This [type Of marriage] is for those men among you Who are afraid of committing sin of Adultery [due to physical need], but it is Better for you to practice self-restraint, And Allāh is the Merciful Forgiving; (25)